i got... the most heinous spark of inspo late last night for a new layout. not heinous in that the idea or the source of inspo is bad, but it's been a while since an idea hit me in the way it did-- like a vision, lolz.
basically, i want to return to the cybersphere...
being boring once more and saying that idk what to write about!!! ah!!! this time i literally have done nothing all day, only watch youtube, scroll through pinterest, and eat food lolz. i wanna be creative, tho i don't know what i should do.
should i write a new story? should i code a new layout? should i just watch the final episode of gokusen ii and cry because i won't be able to see my pretty boyfriend anymore? like idk.
but what i do know is. jet set radio is one of the most creative franchises i have seen thus far in my little life. and i have yet to talk about it at all, so... let's get into it.
i have returned! a little later than expected, but i did!!! the weather was unusually clear ands sunny today, not super cold. hopefully we can return to the rain soon.
anyway. once again, i dunno what to talk about!!! uhhhhhh........... ah! i have an idea.
when you like a character that is cutesy... what's usually their representative color?
so, moving on...
eugene here. the weather's lovely today-- nice and cloudy and cold. the skies are grey. i wish i could go out to the library or bookstore, but i guess it's just not in the cards for today.
anyway. i wanted to chat about paramore's b-sides.
you know, i hadn't really listened to signal that thoroughly until recently.
and it... reminded me of splatoon music?!?!!!! what!!!
hey heyz~ it's eugene, coming to you at noon~ (well, it was noon when i started writing)
good evening~ eugene's a little late, but they had a strange day. rather not talk about it, so let's get into it.
final day of the weekdays, and then, i have a week off! i'm glad. and it's raining today~ with that and my vampirism playlist on, a good day is so much better.
bwaaaaaah, my hands are cold!!! taking frost damage in da game.... -1 -1 -1 -1
anyway. what are your favorite lines of lyrics?
real quick, i think some good inspiration has just come back to me regarding my next spacehey layout!
in middle school, i absolutely adored this one dj called chime. i listened to their music all the time while playing splatoon because it fit so well, and the fact that it rarely had lyrics made it easier to focus with. a lot of them have a pixelated retro video game sound, but with super sick synth and energetic beats that make sure it all gets stuck in your head.
but the question is, which song~ or what songs, since i love a lot of them. i used to adore starstorm (in fact, it's my first liked song ever on my current spotify account, and it has beautiful album art), but i also liked interdimensional and soda world.
another sunday, another week ahead. uuuuuugh. but after this week, i have a week off! so that's something to look forward to. also, the other day, the music player broke?!?! the site's down. so i had to find a different one. i mean, it works the same, so... or maybe i could try having only a singular song.
anyway. silver or gold~?
for some reason, i've been listening to mama (by exo-k) a lot recently-- especially through the mv, because of all the sound effects and how it blends with the song to create a full experience. i go on random exo marathons pretty often, but this song usually isn't included since it's never...been my favorite? i mean, i didn't dislike it, but i didn't love it like i do now. my repeated songs are usually off of the xoxo album.
but i digress. a few days ago, i wrote that exo felt like old friends to me, right? such is because they were my first k-pop group, and i still like them and listen to them often.
so, why not explore how i came to like them in such a way? (ot9/ot11, btw-- unfortunately i never learned much about ot11 so ot9 is more familiar, but i do understand ot11.)
hi! everything feels a little weird... like, what do you mean this blog is public now? but at the same time, it feels like i'm bridging the gap between my two selves. i'm really scared (my hands have been shaking for the entire day), but also really excited. part of it may be because i haven't been sleeping well and my brain's all frazzled, but we have the weekend ahead so i'm not worried... and i mean, i know that realistically nothing will happen here, so.
mind if i ramble about robots for a while?
hey hey~ your local 2005-akanishi-jin-obsessed dork is back! (i'm getting bored of saying "eugene here" every time, but. uh. anyway, onto the post.)
what's in a love confession? how do you prefer to profess your love?
good afternoon. not the usual supa-early wednesday post, but pretty early compared to how late i've been writing them recently. sorry~
anyway. i have a strange little story to tell, so buckle in~
as much as i love to learn and get things done, i hate the lingering feeling of forgetting something when i actually have free time. like let me be non-productive in peace!
anyway.
another lazy day. i had the day off, so i got to sleep in. and when i woke up, it was raining outside. the sky was a perfectly pale shade of grey, and the sound of the leaves rustling in the winds warmed my heart.
eugene here. i got to stay and sleep in this sunday, so i'm feeling pretty good, though my ears hurt from having my earbuds in for most of the day.
eugene here. i had a really good day today. iykyk, but that aside, i had so much fun.
referencing the passion pit song i love, which i think i mentioned before, but is all the more relevant now. today, there is a happy post. today has been a relatively good day. and hopefully, i have a good weekend to look forward to. that's what's planned, at least.
i'm feeling calm today, but not better. not well. such will probably take a while. i tried to make a new blogger account for this, but it fell through. i'm still trying to think of ways to keep my loved ones and i safe, and ways to keep this space safe, but the general feeling of doom is getting to me, too. other than that, again, everything's been strangely...calm. normal, but not. it's unsettling.
so, if it's alright, i'd like to chat about something comforting.
though there is a picture of akanishi and a song for the day, it is only out of an attempt to bring and maintain a sense of solace for myself, and any of you who may be reading this. but nothing is comfortable. and i approach this post with a level of severity i haven't before.
as i fell asleep late last night, and woke up this morning, despair carved a cave in my chest. still now, i am angry and terrified. how could i not be? i was hoping common sense would win, but no. dark days are ahead, and any day, the rights of those i love and myself will be stripped away.
i am not being dramatic. they have made this known since the beginning, and a horrible choice has been made. i dare not call it a mistake, knowing that this is exactly what people want, and we have failed to protect ourselves despite all of our efforts.
while the despair remains, so has a fire within me, stronger as i come to terms with all the reckoning of what is to come.
this is not the end. this cannot be the end.
we must all live, and survive. we must ensure our loved ones survive, and even if their physical forms may not, we will keep their presence. their stories, the very fact that they lived and were. all they were. all we are. we must preserve and persevere. resist deep within. because at the end of the day, we still have ourselves. we know ourselves. we must, if no one else will, because that is the one thing they cannot take away from us.
cry and let the wells run dry. shake yourself off. put on some clean clothes, eat and drink. do not be defeated. that is what they want.
live, and know that as long as you do, they will not have you. love, and know that as you do, they can never keep you.
sotd: girl with one eye by florence + the machine
tuesdays are usually pretty boring days, weirdly enough. they usually feel like an in-between between the beginning and middle of the week. the middle before the middle. calm before the storm? i dunno.
hello. coming back to you late, even though i wasn't feeling super hot today. i had another post written, but... i dunno. thought better of it, and decided to scrap it, so this is the post of the day. and to be honest, i feel as if this one i can articulate much better.
hey hey, eugene here once more~ not much happened this sunday, but it was still a pretty good one.
eugene's had a good day so far... they got to try a new boba place, and got a dvd/cd drive for their computer, so now they can listen to cds and watch dvds wherever they go~~~ and right now, they're watching gokusen ii while writing this!!! and it barely cost much, ah, what an investment~
