cherry blossom festival!

i went to the cherry blossom festival today!!! this is gonna be all over the place, but i hope u're able to make heads n tails of it...

heart-eyed, starry-eyed

happy valentine's day!!! i hope you've had a wonderful saturday~

brain sutures

i had a really postal service day today. 

the page turner

today's my birthday :) i'm 19 now! 

blastoff in t-minus...

i missed a day. the first day i've completely, fully missed. as cruddy as i feel about it, i've had to take a quick step back. 

stepping on the clouds

today was my graduation ceremony.

new

it's nowhere near midnight where i am, but of course, some are already in the new year. 

so, happy new year! i hope 2025 is filled with happiness and love. it's sure to be an... eventful year ahead, to say the least, but. i do believe there is light to be found in all places, no matter how big or small.

do you guys set resolutions? it's never really been a thing for me. but regardless, i do hope that i make it through this year and start the next chapter of my life beyond high school well :). and that i stay with this blog and spacehey!!! two of my favorite places fr, i'm so grateful to be there~ i especially hope i talk to more ppl! but we'll see~

sotd: beautiful night by b2st

chrysler

meeeeeeerry squidmas! i luv luv luv u all!!! regardless of whether or not you celebrate it, i hope you're having a beautiful day as always~~~ or, had. considering over here it's pretty late at the time of posting.

happy :)

hi again! honestly i started writing this the day before but fell asleep... technically, this would've been the third post of that day! sounds unusual, doesn't it~ (it used to be common though, hehe.) 

anyway. moving on! 

digicam

i dropped my pie on the floor!!! um. anyway. 

three cheers

final day of the weekdays, and then, i have a week off! i'm glad. and it's raining today~ with that and my vampirism playlist on, a good day is so much better.

think less but see it grow (felicity)

eugene here. i had a really good day today. iykyk, but that aside, i had so much fun.

hope is filthy

though there is a picture of akanishi and a song for the day, it is only out of an attempt to bring and maintain a sense of solace for myself, and any of you who may be reading this. but nothing is comfortable. and i approach this post with a level of severity i haven't before.

as i fell asleep late last night, and woke up this morning, despair carved a cave in my chest. still now, i am angry and terrified. how could i not be? i was hoping common sense would win, but no. dark days are ahead, and any day, the rights of those i love and myself will be stripped away. 

i am not being dramatic. they have made this known since the beginning, and a horrible choice has been made. i dare not call it a mistake, knowing that this is exactly what people want, and we have failed to protect ourselves despite all of our efforts.

while the despair remains, so has a fire within me, stronger as i come to terms with all the reckoning of what is to come. 

this is not the end. this cannot be the end. 

we must all live, and survive. we must ensure our loved ones survive, and even if their physical forms may not, we will keep their presence. their stories, the very fact that they lived and were. all they were. all we are. we must preserve and persevere. resist deep within. because at the end of the day, we still have ourselves. we know ourselves. we must, if no one else will, because that is the one thing they cannot take away from us.

cry and let the wells run dry. shake yourself off. put on some clean clothes, eat and drink. do not be defeated. that is what they want. 

live, and know that as long as you do, they will not have you. love, and know that as you do, they can never keep you.

sotd: girl with one eye by florence + the machine

known

for myself, i wanna add a list of known issues with the new layout after a few hours (and the initial excitement wore off):

- monthly tag breaks off at some point for unknown reason, but archive works fine.
- using search in navbar breaks music player?
- honestly, i don't even know how the search in navbar works.
- favicon doesn't load outside of home page?
- should i add a link to home page in the header? 
- don't know how to add older posts/newer posts button... works on simple mobile version tho.
- header blurs? tried resizing so it could fit, but it still blurred. not necessarily bad, tho.

pretty sure everything else works as intended, though. i'm still very happy and proud!!! just gotta address these things over time, i guess. i hope you can stay for the journey with me. 

sleep well.

this is the real face!

aaaaaa, i'm so pumped! blasting real face right now! do you guys see?! we've got a totally new layout, baby, we're really in business!!! (well, not business, as i don't get any money from this but you get the vibes!!!) we're gonna make it work!!!

i'm so proud, it looks so beautiful!

i honestly can't believe it. at all. it's so hard to think...  for the longest time, i wondered what it would be like to have an old-style blog of my own, relics of a time i couldn't really actively participate in. with cute little pixels, music, posts, a font, relevant photos... but i was terrified to sign up for anything on the interwebs after long enough-- not really wanting to commit or become disillusioned by my lack of skills, terrified that i'd be subject to more horror than joy. i had heard enough stories.

it started with spacehey, really. a much smaller social media site, i signed up so i wouldn't become overwhelmed by modern social media attributes, and people seemed pretty chill when i joined. i would also be able to customize my little page, the way i wanted. i made some really cool friends (i luv all of u!!!), and started learning some css. but in the back of my mind, i always sort of remembered... i really wanted a blog.

i knew/still know that spacehey has its own blog feature, but it wasn't really the same (at least to me). i wanted something completely separate.

so, we have the murasaki diaries: the name coming from akanishi jin's song, and the vampire diaries. don't really watch it (i couldn't take all of the back and forth after a while), but it sounded catchy in my head. it made me smile. i found a really nice layout on createblog, and while i loved it to bits, i noticed on other computers that it would redirect too many times and cause an error... so, i decided to make one of my own.

and now we're here! i'm so happy. even though things on the outside haven't really changed much, so much has happened here, in the interwebs. 

it's really amazing...

small joys

hello~ i'm a little sleepy so i'll probs take a nap soon, but i wanted to share the little button i made for the blog for its 100th post anniversary~ (which was actually like two posts ago but who cares!!!)

ta-daaaaaa!!!!! isn't he cute? i decided to add my most used spacehey pfp, since it's special to me, and i think most ppl who know me through the interwebs can recognize me that way. 

now you can share it on ur site(s) too~ i'll probs put it where my profile is, or maybe at the end of each post as a little signature~

celebration

ah, i keep forgetting! as of a couple days ago, it's officially been one month since this blog started! i know i don't really have anyone to celebrate with (as of posting, this is a private blog), but i'm truly glad i decided to start this. 

it's nice having a better look into myself and my days. in the past, i usually didn't write much in journals, because my hand would cramp and i didn't want to waste space by writing practically the same thing over and over again... not to mention, i always felt that disconnect from the life i experienced to the life that felt like mine when i was alone at night. having this makes the disconnect... less wide, if it even exists anymore at all. and i can add all this stuff, without spending money on materials or paper, or ink... it's beautiful.

thank goodness for blogs. long live the blog!!!

teehee

okay, i lied!!! instead of homework, i worked on the layout for the story idea. and it turned out beautifully. here, take a look:

it took me many hours, but i'm happy with how it turned out for now. this is the first time i've every played around with blogger code, and there aren't as many training wheels as on spacehey. and even then, what i did was insanely easy, probably. i just made a background, messed around with colors and proportions and translated it all, and added music, and a few extra things. 

i was particularly inspired by the old layouts you see on createblog, where a lot of them have headers/backgrounds that really blend into the blog and the content itself. truly fascinating! of course, mine isn't as beautiful as the ones on that site. those are true art. but i can't stop staring at my little creation. i'm happy.