yap yap yap

ok, i guess i can't stop talking lolz. this should be the final one for today tho!!! and for march!!!

started watching kamen rider den-o (the one with takeru satoh). only the first episode, but i'm really interested in how things will unfold!!! i recall seeing lots of images of it while on my little takeru satoh pinterest save speedruns, so i wonder when the scenes i've seen in screenshots will come to fruition...

i also found a place to watch one of my favorite j-dramas (not gokusen teehee) after it was put behind a paywall-- i'm so thrilled! can't wait to rewatch. also has some other interesting shows and movies, so i'm going to be watching some good things this break~

outstretched in the dark

oh my squidding cod i also forgot to mention-- the game is perfect!!! i have to use a translator sometimes, but because i already have a gist of the story and the game's diagrams are fairly clear, i'm doing just fine. it's lots of fun, and looks really good too! i'm so glad~ can't wait to play more later on!!!

(also... if you're a spacehey og of mine, you'll recall i used to love guan xing. i still do, but somehow, lu xun is stealing my heart more and more...?!?!?!)

part 1

ah, i forgot. i've been meaning to share this strange... thing i wrote ten days ago. 

making a list... checking it no times at all

final day of march! but the first real day of my week off... 

hmmmmmmmmmmm (again)

once again found a super cool object for a steal of a price! a japanese import of dw7 for ps3, for only $8! sick!!! even sicker, considering ps3 isn't region-locked. the store i went to also had sengoku basara and oblivion goty edition for fairly cheap, but i didn't really want to spend more than $10... can't wait to open it~

well. as of today, really, kat-tun is dissolved. frankly, my feelings are rather quiet about it. part of me wonders why, the other part thinks its because it generally is quiet over here in terms of kat-tun news / content in general. any farewells, final activities, we do not know of, though i check as often as i can. so, i assume things just... fizzled out. it's rather sad.

sotd: captains and cruise ships by owl city

the quietness

the weather was lovely today, but i decided to stay in instead. looked for secondhand kat-tun stuff on the interwebs (why is everything so expensive!!!!!), read books, and ate lots of fresh fruits. it was a nice day of rest for my brain, though admittedly, the fog within has returned.

i'm not too upset about it, though. this fog is different-- there's a strange, whimsical and comforting peace that comes with it. reminiscent of falling asleep in childhood.

yet, i'm still awake. moving on.

tight grip on reality, but i can't...

peaceful day. not much went on at school, and my teachers didn't assign me any new homework~ now, i can spend spring break resting and figuring out college stuffs. especially after such a fun field trip? perfect intro to the weekend. which'll be good, hopefully. hopefully. hopefully. 

admittedly, today was also a bit surreal.

glass camellia

lovely day today! 

health potion

fully restored my grey ipod.

kernel panic

it appears i was a bit careless the other day with the grey ipod and might have kept it in the sun? because the screen suddenly looks really bad. well, not suddenly. happened gradually, but only in the span of like... an hour. the colors are all messed up. i'm going to do a restore just in case it's not a hardware issue and somehow corrupted itself again, but it's not totally unusable in its state so i'm not too worried. and it's not the craziest thing it's thrown at me, either.

i don't think i recall ever sharing this, but sometimes i think the device is haunted. or modified in some supernatural way. unless apple back then was just somehow that good at making devices, what i've got is unnaturally resilient. but maybe that's just because i (and naturally others) have come to accept devices with short life spans. it's a strange little device.

but i digress. i'll also do a full restore on the blue ipod, see what its capabilities are in terms of photo, video, audiobook... part of me wonders if the amount of songs on there is contributing to the short battery life, but i doubt it. it feels strange, but i'd hate to just leave it unused. so, it shall undergo a transformation.

sort of a silly idea, isn't it... because music is so intertwined with our personalities. ipods have personality...!!! that's a funny thought... would be an interesting story, too.

random, but the weather's been getting warm lately. and i realized something-- during warmer weather (and warmer months... and warmer seasons...), i usually tend to crave pasta dishes. when it's cooler out, i crave rice dishes. i wonder why that is. 

sotd: fly like a butterfly by hideki naganuma

akanishi tiramisu

i don't know why i put tiramisu in the title. i don't even like coffee.

but with that being said-- if you could host a themed café, what would you focus it on~? 

on target

nothing much happened today, but i did finish my spacehey layout for april. it looks so cute and cool, i can't wait to show it off~ i don't think it's very mobile friendly, though. i would run it through my layout tester, but idk. i sort of want it to be a total surprise? 

i was at the library for a time (which is when i put together the final details for the layout), but i was actually meaning to go through a new korean textbook i got from it. i had attempted learning korean previously, so there are some very vague remnants of what i learned. thankfully i'm familiar with a good chunk of it, though some of the vocabulary and sentences given are different than what i got in my first textbook. isn't that interesting~?

i also got some baking books! can't wait to look through them. to be honest, the only reason i really like looking at them is all the pretty pictures. (i don't borrow a lot of older cookbooks for this reason-- there are no pics!!!!) so cookbooks always pile up the home, admittedly. and i never really save any recipes, though honestly i should at least try some of them.

it's late, but i still have some chem work to do too. it seems like i really can't drop it, so i'm hoping to at least get a passing grade by the end of the year. i'm not taking the exam (and honestly i wouldn't pass it in the first place).

sotd: hello by nu'est

live on the edge!

today is kat-tun's anniversary.

threads of f8

i remember mentioning i wanted to write about this a long time ago, but never did. so now is the time!

i wanna talk about shoujo manga! (and by extension, any other manga i have loved before and may still love now.)

tag, you're it

didn't get to sleep at a good time last night, but for once i had a good reason. college stuff...!!! 

arrow buttons

found out the other night that kamenashi and akanishi... in their ad for the mario dance dance revolution thing... are now part of a meme?!??!?!?!?!?! i'm crying oh my cod-- i'm both mortified and laughing so hard that they got roped into the madness. x_x

laugher aside, i had a pretty bad day. decided to throw myself into putting together the new site layout afterwards, and honestly it's coming along really well. also went on another akanishi web quest the other day, so i have some lovely new photos to add here and maybe pinterest too. feel a little better thinking about it.

the only problem is that i still haven't been working on my site ahahaha... i always say i am yet i never do. maybe if i stop saying it i'll begin working on it. inverse.

though i'm not sure how good of a job i can do in my current state. my brain's more disconnected than usual. oh well.

sotd: robot rock by daft punk

magma

aaaaaauuuuuuggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! seriously heinous day. ugh. i don't even wanna talk about it.

what i do wanna talk about is site stuff! bcuz that never gets boring. (also spacehey has been down for like... six hours. wonder what happened.)

bananas foster

sorry for the late post once more! nothing really happened today. no homework, though i do have a test coming up that i'll probably fail bcuz it's chem and i've been on a downward slope since november but i swear i'm trying my hardest!!! *sob*

gonna get to bed soon tho, still hoping to reset my sleep schedule so i don't take super long naps. isn't it strange how sometimes even if you sleep well, you're totally tired? and then some days you don't sleep well at all, but you have lots of energy. how does that work? what a strange thing, the human body can be.

sotd: into your arms by the maine (i'm falling in love, but it's falling apart~)

when you let your heart win!!!

went on a super cool adventure today!!! 

oreo

got cheesecake today-- cookies and cream. it's literally so good it's almost upsetting!!!

other than that, i didn't really do anything. i wish i did. but my brain's pulling its usual tricks on me again, and now i'm back in a strange body. well. what else can i do.

one week from now will be kat-tun's nineteenth official anniversary. and then nine days after that... i really need to lock in, sheesh. thankfully homework is low, so if my strange brain is able to stay grounded for longer than two minutes i can do something. and then maybe i can knock out the new theme for this site, too.

small steps, really. finish the albums, then basic member info. then commercials and shows. then a fan letter / reflection. that's only five things. and while they're fairly large five things, the time will pass anyway, and what will i have to show for it? and as for the site, first i must figure out a new color scheme. then design a header. then code. three things. hm~

stones are fascinating objects.

sotd: girl's not grey by afi

one more moment

real quick second post! (been a while since i've done that, huh~?)

lately, on top of adding some things, i've been thinking of redoing the layout of this blog. new header, different style. it's been cutesy since its fist day, maybe we should switch it up a little. i want to lean more into my rock...tastes? if that makes any sense? i wonder if i could add this blog to fanlistings and stuff, too...

the only problem is the email this blog is under. i tried moving it to a new email, but then the email got flagged because of all the posts i have... like, yikes on bikes i guess. what do i do now? i don't really want to fuse the two together, but what choice do i have...

well well well

it's eugene!!!! (haha, been a while since i've done that~) had a day off today. i really wanted to go out, but honestly i've been sleeping so badly, so i instead took the day to get lots of sleep. will it help? maybe. maybe not. 

panko

really... now that i've made spam fries, i want to fry so many other foods. it's actually sort of ridiculous! a while ago i wanted to try making cheese lumpia, and/or mozzarella sticks (technically cheese lumpia can be a type of mozzarella stick, but...). but now i also want to make menchi katsu and croquettes!!! or maybe cream cheese filled donuts. or well, just donuts. or carioca! 

it's a shame fried foods have to be so unhealthy... if they weren't, i'd have them so often... blah! (right now i'm eating mozzarella sticks though... ehehe!)

sotd: some by junggigo and soyou ft. lil boi

elderberry

an alright day, except for when i got absolutely poured on after school (the rain suddenly started up again).  it was one of my friends' birthdays, so i was able to give her her gift and card. i also made her some cake ^^

random, but i want to try baking cakes with a whole variety of flavors! i'm already familiar with vanilla, choco, strawberry, and now almond! i wanna get better at making pandan cake, too... maybe ube, or mango, or guava, or passion fruit... ehehe~ my mind is wandering~

sotd: 20 by boynextdoor (so catchy!!!)

needle teeth

so late!!! but i promise i have a good reason. i was baking my friend's birthday cake (and preparing her gift overall), and doing some homework. finally, i feel more productive. (i have to be, anyway. aside from being a good friend i don't wanna fail chem!)

i haven't been able to work on the site, i'm beginning to get frantic! but at the same time, every time i open it up my mind goes completely blank. kelp! but... not everybody updates their site every day, all the time, right? because life happens, lolz. 

wondered why they never...

back to school, back to the boring and usual. i wish i could write more substantial blog posts these days, but i find myself unable to do much. same goes for the site. and spacehey. and everything else. the other day, i went on a sort of web quest of old kat-tun and akanishi pics. found some good ones to add here, and to the site. so there's that, too.

i miss writing. what should i write about, though? there are so many vague whispers of dreams i've had, yet nothing substantial. if i try to grab for them, they slip between my fingers. ah...

sotd: lovesong by the cure

sizzle pork and mmm or whatever it stands for

i have just made the most amazing spam fries on this side of [redacted]. they're delicious. they're beautiful. they're easy to make. i cannot truly describe the elation i feel right now. i woke up feeling absolutely horrible, and now i'm on top of the world for spam fries.

also sort of getting into off again. the video game. it's a fascinating little game, and i completely forgot it had a switch remaster until i started listening to the ost again and saw some of the new songs. 

sotd: peper steak

chewy chewy gummy

alright day today. i got some really good boba (oolong mt with bobaaaa), and wrote the first post of the paramore fan project i have going on. for 20 weeks (starting this week), i will highlight my favorite paramore songs! i don't think the analysis of them will be very deep, but i wanted to show my appreciation for a group that has quite literally gotten me through much of my life. and i know that goes for a lot of groups, but c'mon. it's paramore!!!

(brief camera cut to me thinking about listening to paramore with yabuki blah!!!!! yearning...)

i wanna get back into playing splatoon again, i really miss it. and frankly, i need it to relieve stress. there is so much going on right now. for some reason i keep thinking of petri dishes. 

also i didn't know it was possible, but i hit a block with the fansite? genuinely. i open up a page and don't know what to work on next. but the passion's still there!!! i just don't know where to start... wondering if i should just ask a friend to point at something for me to do, since my brain's definitely frazzled beyond comprehension right now.

sotd: horizon by ateez

going worldwide

finally, friday. today was a strange day. very good in some ways, very bad in others-- i don't really know what else to say about it. i'm really looking forward to the weekend though, hoping to go out and get boba. i think i need lots of fresh air. 

wondering if i should write a pirate story. steampunk pirates. sounds like fun, doesn't it? probs already been done, but nothing wrong with putting your own spin on things...

sotd: pirate by everglow

again and again

another very short update. another boring day, to be frank... i really need to take care of my sleep schedule though. i also added some things to the fansite! a view counter, as well as the button. so, it looks a little more lively. 

i have been making a little list of dramas i want to watch someday, too. hoping i can find them on dvd, tbh, so i always have stock of them like gokusen!

sotd: be mine by infinite

ramblings about odagiri ryu...

...as someone who identifies deeply with him. 

ellipsis

i haven't been feeling well lately, so everything's slipping. forgive me. 

yearbook edition

why did i literally never notice march started. lolz! just changed my few past posts and made a new tag. strangely been listening to one direction a lot today. i don't think i've really talked about them much, so i suppose i will now... 

bows and frills

i think i ended up a little burnt by all the site work i did on friday-- i haven't done any since! and my brain is blank when i open the dashboard, lolz. but i'll get back into the groove of things again.

truthfully, i want to add more to the homepage. it looks a lil' bland. and after poking around some other blogger sites, i wanna update this one a bit, too! what shall i add~? i wanna add so much now.

anyway. i was really sad today, but after listening to today's sotd i feel a lot better, haha. maybe i should start rewatching it already, bcuz i feel so lost... i know their journey is really very unrealistic and plucky, but i can't help but feel reassured when i watch it, and when i see their faces. it's riddick(ulous, remove the k)...

still hoping i can get the discs for the emac soon-- i wanna see what gokusen looks like on it! blah!

sotd: no more cry by d-51(? from gokusen ii, lolz)

i told you so

went to the storage today and got my sister's old emac from 2006. it was... a lot bigger and heavier than i thought it would be??? but it's in my room now, and i'm currently installing the mac os discs. but the way it sounds is honestly so... comforting. a gentle whir from the fans, quietly loading along... the sound the computer makes when you press a keyboard key (because the keyboard can't be accessed right now) is sorta funny too, always makes me jump.

i'm curious to see how it'll work, if it'll work at all. i've wanted to have this computer for almost my entire life, so i'm really excited. and even if it doesn't quite work (especially because of its age, i don't really expect it to be able to load much), i'll know. it won't be a "what if" anymore.

well. i'm going to go continue site stuff now, maybe upd8 my friendos on spacehey, too~

sotd: the airway by owl city