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today is the last day of july. and tomorrow, august will start... this blog will reach its first year, how strange is that~? 

put together an impromptu new layout... and then stuck the old one as the mobile layout... it doesn't look that great currently, but it's better than working with what i've got on the computer version, trust me. the background image will probs end up super grainy.

in other news, i'm not feeling too hot emotionally. i don't know what it is, but i can't shake the feeling that everything's gonna go wrong and i'm just... not up to things as they are. for instance, art class. now i can't help but think it's just gonna go horrible. i'm not good at art at all, definitely not as good as my likely classmates. and i hear all these horror stories about bad art teachers and professors who just tear their students down... 

just classes in general, too. i got into a difficult school, so to speak. that's so much pressure. am i really up to it? i haven't been doing any academic activities this whole summer, though i am going to start brushing up on precalc skills again because i have a placement exam. 

and this summer. i wanted to do so much, but it seems it'll all be over before i get to enjoy it. all this time being sick and instead of finally being able to have a good time, i'm thrown back into work. work that's probably gonna be way worse than ever. so many places i wanted to try and go to, foods and drinks to savor, the beautiful weather...

i feel the way daphne loves derby songs sound. (on that note; i finally got around to downloading you versus the sea, so i've had that on repeat for hours.)

sotd: let the flames begin by paramore