the odds of love

today's topic is a little awkward: crushes!!! (i don't have one rn, don't worry. i don't really have them over the summer, lolz.) 

a lot of the time, whenever i develop a new crush on a character or celebrity (or, occasionally, real person), my friend notes that i have a type. and i know i do on a superficial level, but after finding favorite characters for samurai warriors, i've been thinking about it deeper... and she's even more right than i ever perceived. it's almost concerning.

what i'm trying to say is: if i had a nickel for every time i developed a liking or crush on someone who had a cold or blank demeanor, loved math and numbers, head a deadpan / blank or vaguely negative expression, was taller than me (though that isn't hard because i'm short), had dark hair and/or dark eyes, and a smooth voice...

i'd have multiple nickels. through many years. that's... i'm not exactly proud of it, but i don't totally hate it either, except for when i realize i'm just falling for similar people over and over again. regardless, it's pretty crazy, no? 

if i end up happily married to someone for life, would they be similar to or totally different from this type? i wonder. because it almost always has ended in some sort of heartache. they're not real, or they don't return feelings (or the signs are totally muddled... ugh, never happening again hopefully).

nth time is the charm. maybe. what are the probabilities of this happening?

and as an aside, regarding today's sotd... you have songs that you'd hope to share with the love of your life one day, right? or maybe, you hope that as you gaze upon them, they'll echo in your mind. this one is one of them. (alongside the saltwater room, personally...)

perhaps one day, for one moment...

sotd: won't stop by onerepublic