sunset

hello~. 

hung out with some of my old friends today. we haven't really hung out or even talked much since elementary school, so it was interesting. everyone changed so much. it's so bittersweet.

we went bowling and then got lunch, and hung out at a park for a bit. i took a bunch of pictures as well. it seems to be something i'm getting into-- taking pictures of things, i mean. i was never really one for doing so, but as my adolescence comes to a close, i realize there's so many memories i can keep if i just push a button.

admittedly, i was sort of distant with them. i stayed out of most of the second round of bowling and stayed behind most of the time to watch the food when we went to the park. but that's how things are. it seemed they still had a great time, and i did too.

anyway. what am i gonna do now...

sotd: what's new scooby doo by simple plan

fun, fun, fun

remember that event i talked about the day before? well, i went to watch the sunrise with my friends. the final day of august, finally letting go of the summer and entering our final year where we are. the final year of a routine we've known for more than ten years. though it was cloudy, and we couldn't see the sun, i still had a great time.

other than that, it was a pretty average friday. i learned about orbitals and the orbital blocks, and about quantum numbers. i got a lot of homework for the weekend, but i was able to complete some of it before the school day was over. i just wanna rest and watch more gokusen ii this weekend.......... yabuki hayato needs to be my boyfriend yesterday!!! or should he? i'm not entirely sure if he'd be a good boyfriend, as much as i love him. would we be compatible? hmmmm................... a potato can dream~

also, i talked more with my mother about sewing dolls (she sews really well, used to study fashion). we have fabric to start making them! we have to wash it first, but i'm so excited to try... except for that i lost the proofs i made. ugh!!! i better find them or else i might cry doing them again. i wanna make a yabuki doll!!!

my next dessert ideas are pretty much also set. i'm gonna try making pandan bibingka in september, then pumpkin cake in october, and maybe ginataang in november? i've been wanting to bake them for a while, so hopefully i can fulfill those goals~

anyway. i need a nappppp............

sotd: desperate run from dynasty warriors 8 (shin sangokumusou 7)

my love is...

deep sighs. i gotta get up super early tomorrow for an event, so i'm trying my hardest not to take a nap right now. but my bed, my sleep... i love it too much... no!!! i mustn't!!!

i know i've been saying this way too often, but i'm once more thinking about what subjects i want to pursue later. in my other classes today, i found myself wishing i was in an english class. not just my english class, the specific period i had it, but just an english class in general. the atmosphere of english classes are always so comforting to me (even when i have to give anxiety- and -tear-inducing presentations or speeches). they're always warm and bright, they have their own little libraries. and the teachers are always nice (at least, in my experience and at my school). when i leave, i will miss it deeply.

so then, someone would say, "well, since you love english so much, why don't you go into it in college/career?"

that's... my entire problem. what if i do way too much of it in college/career, and end up hating it? if i hated writing, or hit another block and broke my brain like i did in middle school, i wouldn't know what to do. but... it's what fuels me. it's what fills my heart with warmth and excitement. it makes me so happy.

well. i guess we'll figure out those hurdles when we get there.

sotd: dahlia by (g)-idle