strange trends

a lot of short blog posts today, but this will probs be the final one of the day. 

i noticed recently: a lot of the story ideas that i have end up getting really... deep, all of a sudden. at least in my mind. (remember how i said that the actual execution ends up not being as deep because i can't bring my worst feelings to the surface?)

like, get this. i start with a cute idea, originally plan it out to be a fluffy little short story... and then it takes a turn. i don't even know where the turn comes from! it's just like, "hm. what if this became angst? how would that happen?" 

like, that's what happened with this recent idea... i thought i would make it a cute story between an idol and a fan, with a little time travel sprinkled in and a happy ending. but then the vampire stuff happened!!!

i know it's my fault, considering i'm the one entertaining such ideas, but. my writing's never really taken turns that often before... what's the reason? is it connecting to me wanting to let go of deeper pains?