sweetheart

hello! back to our regular schedule~ today was a pretty normal day, though almost woke up late. i seem to be returning to my melancholy again, which is okay. i had a lot of cool story ideas the other day, so maybe i'll take advantage of my strange emotional state and start to chip away at them? as i said, i don't like that my writing is constrained in such a way, but...

picking up on a past string from last night, i've still been thinking about the passage of time. i know my life, but i can never truly know another's. another can never truly know mine. where will i be, five years from now? ten? twenty? where will my friends be, who will my friends be? where will my family be? what will i be doing? will i feel fulfilled? at the threshold, i don't know how to feel.

high school really puts a lot of pressure on you to think about these things, to plan them down to the tiniest detail, even figure out a plan b or plan c. but that could never be useful. we don't know who we are yet. and they couldn't know. how could they? 

i promise i'm not as depressing in real life, haha. my thoughts just tend to skew that way.

sotd: care by akanishi jin <333